Thursday, July 26, 2007

It's over- DAMMIT

I have to get this off my chest real quick.

I've been IMing my BFF because this past week I've had 2 ex's contact me, just to see how I'm doing. Now these 2 ex's, well - let me take them on one at a time

1st ex wasn't that deep of a relationship, but he basically decided that he didn't want to be involved with someone with a child. Ok, your lost. I was PISSED, but got over it and moved on. Now for the record I'm no tack head that got knocked up by some corner hustler. I'm a very grown woman who was in a relationship with a man with a plan of eternity. The plan didn't work, but we have a beautiful daughter that we raise in complete harmony. We are co-parents, at its finest and it works for us. So I was offended by this brothers move (because he was aware that I was a mother before beginning the relationship and he also had very limited access to my daughter). But again- I couldn't hate him for his preferences.
So why on gods green earth does he call me sunday, out of the blue. We have a very general, very bland conversation for about 1 hour (again, trying not to SHOW that I was affected by his decision). I get a text from him later that night saying that he still cares about me and misses me. Now, the FUCKER didn't even have the decency during our hour long conversation to once ask how my daughter is doing. He ALSO didn't ask anything about my mother, who was dealing with breast cancer when I was with him. Then he calls again several times monday- all calls get ignored. He calls a couple times tuesday, and sends another text message (something like he wants to stick his tongue in my love hole to which I reply- U got issues)....So now the bitch has come out- in full mode. I call him:

Me: what's up? Why are you calling me?
Him: just wanted to see how I'd been doing.
Me: BULLSHIT, you did that sunday, then you send stupid ass messages- what's up? What do you want?
**crickets**
Me: "you haven't called in months, why now?"
Him: "Well you haven't called me either"
Me: "EXACTLY! Months ago I wasn't good enough for me. Months ago you didn't want to be in a relationship. Months ago you didn't want to talk to me anymore, but now you have the nerve to just start calling and sending text messages as if nothing ever happened. I talked to you sunday with no problem. I endured your corny ass jokes, I even ignored the bullshit text sunday night. But you've overstepped your bounds with this last message. Your a selfish asshole"
Him: "O, so I'm an asshole. Ok, I won't call you anymore. Is that what you want?"
Me: "Do you have anything else to say?"
**crickets**
Convo ends. ........


Now today, the one guy that I just KNEW I was going to be with for the rest of my life (see all old posts about love and all that other bullshit), and ironically enough the guy who I was with before dude above sends an email today saying he just wanted to see how I'm doing and would love to talk to me.
Mutha-fucka for why? I'd already told him that the on again off again thing ended with the last round. If we didn't work out, we needed to move on because it wasn't fair to keep going back and forth. We didn't work, we've moved on. He calls my BFF to find out how I'm doing. What's up with that? I got my cell number changed so he couldn't call me so he calls her instead.
My BFF has an ex who's getting married. And this bastard wants to call her and share his joy with her. Now mind you that they were high school sweethearts that went off and on through out college and into adulthood. So there's a long history. Also, they were together a few months before this engagement. Now, I guess I'm happy that dude found his mate, but negro you ain't got to rub your joy all up in my girls broken heart. And she's to dayum poliet and sweet to tell this fucker that she's hurt by the action. Happy for him, but the shit hurts! She thought HE was going to be the one, and he turned out to be- the one for someone else. I mean invites to the wedding, calling talking about the ring and plans for the future with the OTHER woman- COME ON! I was so upset that I wanted to call him myself and curse him out, but it isn't my business. So I just try to control my hot head, and support her- but I want to slap the teeth out of his mouth